I Hate Holiday (If it happen like this)

Usually, everybody likes holiday but i'm different.

When my friends are waiting and craving for a holiday, i am begging for the lecture session going longer and hoping the holiday last shorter.

I hate holidays especially the long holiday like in this sixth semester. When in the senior high school the situation was different. I didn't have such a long holiday like this. The holiday in the college now last for 3 months. I would be fed up for this. I can't stand doing anything for 3 months. I now that i must work forward for my graduate research. The holiday make me stuck. I can't go to the library or to the campus to see my lecture more often like when it wasn't holiday.

What do they think?. The campuss administrator maybe wants to save money. I know, its need a big amount of money to fund the campuss activity. Sometimes, i feel really regret for paying such a big amount just for the school fee. At last i just receive not really significant knowledge and really little time to learn. I dont't know if campuss life can be so lazy than in the high school.

I'm afraid if my brain can't be so sharp because i tend to being relax when in college. I rarely do any math exercise also i rarely read other subject book besides social welfare, sociology, or psychology. I miss my german lessons, i think it is more worth to learn or at least the history lesson.

Someone has said that during young age we must learn more often in order to excel our brain and increase it capacity to memorize when we get old someday. If we do the opposite it may decrease our brain capacity or blatantly said we can be more stupid than the one who always excel their brain in the young age.

On one side, i really want to always learn and excel my brain but the condition around me aren't accomodate. I don't find something that can facilitate me to do that. For example, i've planned to do my graduate research during this holiday but the central library aren't ready to borrow their book because they just have moved. Hello, you have moved since June. Does it needs a year for you to rearrange a book to the shelves?. How about the student right that have paid then?. So, they want us to not read any book unless we are actually a students. How annoying!.

I really want to take any job or part time teaching but there are no any opportunity offered. I also want to join International Seminar on Dissability helds on June in FKM UI but unfortunately they require a big amount of registration fee. We must pay Rp 3 million to register to the seminar. I really want it, i'm sure that it can gives much knowledge and experience to me. But i can't get any sponsor. I was failed asking to the mahalum faculty instead i have given the proposal. The mahalum head office and one of my lecture said that i'm not the priority to be sponsored because i'm the 2008 students. What a misery.

I'm really fed up to spend my time this holiday. I don't know if there will be any opportunity and something that can make my holiday more beneficial. Allah swt knows that i just want to upgrade my self. I still hope for something usefull coming for me this holiday. I still hoping.

Holiday, just be good to me...